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Sunday, February 26, 2006

It's over...

I cant control anymore and talk to him again last nite.. he says he is reali lost.. "lost", wat a easy and irresponsible word to use.. i ask him is he tinking he has still feelings for me or lose them already.. he never reply.. so it's obvious now tat he is not choosing me or going overseas.. but.. whether he still loves me..

I keep asking myself why are we in tis situation?? did i did sumtink wrong?? did a 3rd party came along?? i'm so lost.. reali lost.. jux like him.. every nite i could not slp, i would read his sms to me last time.. he says he will onli love me, never leave me, wont let me shed a tear of unhappiness and 'll be the most happiest gurl in the world.. are those butterflies?? they had reali flew away the day he said he wanted to go overseas..

Maybe he never intend to be wif me forever.. maybe his love for me is not as strong as he said.. Brother said he can feel tat our love for each other is strong.. but.. how i come i dun feel his?? i can onli feel hurt, lost everytink i have and everytink of me is meaningless, useless, worthless..

I felt useless.. being a puppet manipulated by him.. and i cant do anytink.. i cant concentrate on my exams.. i'm trying.. reali trying.. but whenever i'm alone, i jux can tink of him.. whole mind is him and will start to cry.. even if is in bus, exam hall or infront of ppl.. i cant control.. i'm reali stupid.. stupid to cry over him, should know tat no matter how much i cried, he wont come back to me.. will he?? why does fate let us meet? why do i have to know u? fate...

I missed him.. but i dunno where is he.. i cant msg him.. i cant call him.. i can onli cry.. wat a fool i am.. i reali reali hope everytink will be alrite and we will be together.. tat is the onli wish and hope i have now..

Thank you brother, for consoling me tis few nites till veri late.. last nite even till 4 plus.. u are reali good to me.. sorry tat u are worrying abt me.. pls dun.. cox i dun even know wat i will do or mite do.. i can onli wait.. rite?? as u said..

2 more days to his birthday.. will i be the one beside him on tis day??

Posted @ [1:05 PM]