Jux got back from Music clinic.. Alone.. I walked home alone and i cried.. i reali broke down.. maybe yesterday strongness is all put up.. i tried to be strong.. i reali did.. but i cant.. i'm jux a lousy weak gurl.. Jay and Lara's shan hu hai was playing when i broke down.. tis song is his tone when he calls or sms me.. I felt so cheap.. clinging on him when he does not love me anymore.. I know tat sat mite be another big blow to me and i'll get reali reali hurt.. but i still dun wan to give up.. why?? why am i such a loser??

I'm alone.. living in sadness everyday.. on one hand i dun wan to give up.. but on the other, i was liked force to give up.. under all the circumstances and those negative thoughts.. i'm a failure.. how comes every relationship failed?? am i the problem??

It's 12 midnite now.. he still has not call or msg me.. he say to let him know when i'm home.. seems like my safety does not concern him now.. he does not care anymore.. i'm stupid.. reali am.. Bro is rite.. he doesent worth my crying.. but i cant help it.. i know i can end my sufferings earlier if i end the relationship first.. but.. i cant bear to.. it wasnt easy for us to be together.. i dun wan to give up so easily.. but i'm suffering.. wat should i do??

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