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Monday, March 13, 2006

Tolerance and Accomodation...

Hmm, jux woke up.. reached home at 7 plus from bro's chalet.. 2 days didnt catch a wink.. had fun and unhappiness at the chalet.. of course the fun part is enjoying wif bro and him they all around.. the unhappiness part is him also.. hmm, we ad a reali big quarrel last nite.. we both wanted to break.. we had enough and are suffocating.. we loved each other but our characters and bad points are too alike.. we are too stubborn and cant give in... i spent 2hrs alone feeding mosquitoes and reflecting.. if we loved each other, we could try to give in.. if it reali cant work, maybe as he said, break up is the best solution.. he came back after he went driving wif his frenx.. we tried to talk tinks out.. and we both said out our points.. he wanted more freedom, i wanted more concern.. he dun like my attitude, me too.. we've said to try out again.. he can go out wif his frenx.. but at least let me know who he going out wif, the time and place.. in case anytink happen, i know who to contact.. and i'll not show a sulky face even if i'm tired when wif him or his frenx..

Actually we should have ended.. but i feel i rather try to tolerate and accomodate.. maybe in the first place, we dun even suit each other.. but since we've come tis far, shouldn't we at least try to salvage?? he said he doesent wan a break up, but our views are too different.. he said to seperate for a short while.. i cant let him hurt me again.. so i thrased tinks out wif him.. maybe he fel forced and pressurized.. sorry.. but i reali cant bear the pain.. sorry if i made u sound like a bad guy.. i didnt know.. is jux my feelings.. how i feel abt u..

If we cant tolerate and accomdate.. we shall break.. i will iniate ba.. at least he wont feel guilty.. i rather hurt myself than let him do the hurt.. u are rite.. u had many bad points, so do i.. u asked me why i still like u although u have so many bad points.. hmm, if i knew why, i would not have suffer tis much.. i also hope i knew the answer.. i can onli say love is blind...

Posted @ [3:56 PM]