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Saturday, May 05, 2007

Peter lao shi.. No purpose in life..

Hmm.. been busy working lately.. But was pleased wif it.. made nice colleagues and of cox backstabbers as well.. Is annoying.. Shant say much as she spoils my mood.. Little gurl..

Jux reached home.. met up wif mei and lili aft class.. Got my mum her Mothers' Day gift.. Went to the mini arcarde at BHG which is used to be SEIYU.. Haha.. Lili played and played and accumulated tix!! Many many.. 1000+.. haha.. Notink she sees tat she like so she asked me to exchange for a kitty cushion head, when unzipped, is a small comforter!! Cute!! Thankx!! =)

Was at the station when we saw Peter lao shi, talked alot abt his classes.. Seems like it is cheaper if we formed our own class.. haix.. wonder if mummy will still sponser me.. Mux find a day to talk to her.. Reali hope can continue having singing class.. and eventually be in Peter lao shi's choir..

Dunno why.. suddenly i feel so lost.. No aim, no goal, no purpose in life.. Dunno why i have tis feeling of stopping sch and go out to work.. Haix.. so hoping tat i can support myself and able to do wat i like.. tinking of the horrid attachment starting in a mth's time scares me.. it feels like a waste of time and doing free labour..

I need extra income to do the tinks i like and love.. Does anyone have any offers??

Not tat i wan to be thick skinned or wat.. But.. have been approached by modelling agencies.. not one or twice but a few times.. but all those companies are scams.. Haix.. sumtimes i wonder.. why was i born into tis world wif tis face?? I'm sure it have a purpose.. I knw tat i'm not good at anytink.. I cant draw, i cant sing, i cant compose, i cant act and many many.. I jux tink tat since MAYBE some ppl tinks tat i can use my face to earn some $$, why not?? At least, it can prove my little worth in tis world.. I'm someone who have no confidence.. Ppl always tot tat i am a veri confident gurl, but.. no.. cox i met so many ppl who are so much better than me.. i got pinned down.. I reali look veri down on myself.. I jux wan sumtink to prove my little bit of worth of why i am created.. i hope someone can tell me why..

Ppl.. if u knw of any modelling job, such as ads or poster or decent show gurls, pls let me knw ya?? I'm thick skinned enuf to try.. thankx.. =)

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